I was sexually abused when I was six years old by a man who was hired to do handiwork around my home. When I became a teenager I began to have fantasies about tracking him down torturing him and killing him in a very specific manner. I've had years of therapy to help me with this and I am only now in my 30s learning to have normal relationships with men and I am still battling a mental sexual disfunction up to now where a wall comes up automatically during sex - as you can imagine this eventually wears down even the most patient men. I consider myself to be a very beautiful woman and I love my body. Everything will be going well and then suddenly a panic switch goes off in my brain and it’s over. I am still bitter about this. I am better than I was before I started therapy but still I would not pass up a chance at revenge especially towards my own abuser. If I could do it without getting caught I would kill every pedophile I could point a gun to.